I became aware of the dysfunction in my family at a very young age, so I knew I didn't want to pass it on. Their thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors were based on fight-or-flight. Anything related to something negative was normal to them. Being sick, abused, living in poverty, sour relationships, & having constant health issues, was considered the normal life. Even getting a job and working there everyday and hating it was normal. I did that for eight years and thought I was doing the right thing. I realized I wasn't living my truth. I woke up because I was settling for the comfort of others, and maybe even my own due to my environment at home. Making the changes in my life was difficult as first, but it was worth it. I had to learn a new way to be and along the way I gained new experiences. I was taught LIFE IS HARD/LIFE IS STRUGGLE, so I was always afraid of living life. I never saw life as beautiful or amazing. I now see that life doesn't have to be hard or a struggle. In most cases we can make life hard with our poor choices or with our beliefs. Once I changed my mentality, rid myself of toxic people and toxic environments, looking inward instead of outward, seeking passion, purpose, and truth, everything became clear. The repeated patterns in my life were life lessons that I had to learn.
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