My Journey: SILVER

My Journey: SILVER: My feminine hue, related to the moon.  The ebbs and flows of the tides.  Soothing, calming, purifying.  I sat under the moon with silve...

SILVER

My feminine hue, related to the moon.


The ebbs and flows of the tides.


Soothing, calming, purifying.


I sat under the moon with silver during my time of reflection, my change of direction.


During this phase in my life, I spent a lot of time with silver and the moon.


She was always shining her light through my window.


Music was there as well.


They all helped to calm and sooth me.


They cleansed and released the mental and emotional blockage during this period.


My second car was silver. A 2007 Solara.


Funny.


Solara is of the sun.


Silver is of the moon.


She saw my soul. She opened my mind and lighted my way forward.


Solara knew my name and whispered to silver and the moon about me.


I was searching for meaning and fulfillment.


I hid from the world to be with silver.


Solara and the moon still talk about me.


They shine their light to me and say, "We want you to do the same."

Why do I keep hearing this?

"It's disrespectful to speak ill of the dead." Why is it acceptable to display contempt for the living? More harm is done when we're negative towards life and the living. Maybe we honor the dead more than the living because so many of us are dead inside. That's why we relate to death and dead flesh so well.

An Empty Existence

Some of have made the decision to live an empty existence. This choice can be made consciously or unconsciously, which is why we self-medicate with alcohol, drugs, food, or tobacco. These things make us feel good temporarily, that's why we continue the cycle. We're looking for the solution on the outside when it's really on the inside. We've been programmed to seek the outer. We lack knowledge of self, so we end up trying to find ourselves in other people and base our value in material things. We're afraid of ourselves. We fear being authentic. We've been taught not to look at our inner selves because that's where the power comes from. When we look deep within ourselves we're able to get to roots of our issues that cause us pain. Depending on the external is easier, that's how we get caught up in it. Inner work is harder, but the results are much more rewarding. - Daniel's Daughter

Truth

Do you love truth or are you just curious? You ask me questions, but you don’t like my answers. Why? Oh right. My answers don’t fit your idea of me. You don’t want truth. You don’t want to reconstruct your know-how to follow a reality that doesn’t fit your current beliefs. Embracing and finding my truth revealed aspects of myself that were appalling and complex, yet amazing. Facing this reality was painful, but it was needed. My truth is far beyond your mind, that’s why you don’t like or understand it. Maybe you can’t conceive my truth because you want to continue living in the Matrix. I love the truth even when it hurts. I love truth because I can accept it and admit when I’m wrong. Truth saved me. Truth set me free. You don’t want freedom. You want the illusion of it. – Daniel’s Daughter

One of My Life Lessons

When I was 34 years old I met an amazing person who would make a tremendous impact on my life. I thought he was going to be my in my life forever, but he ended up being a life lesson. He was my guide, my teacher, my coach, my rock, and he encouraged me to be a better soldier and a person in life.
We met on a U.S. Army Base in Maryland on a PT field. He had just transferred in from another reserve unit. I didn't like him at first, but he eventually grew on me. We moved very slowly in the beginning. The relationship department had never been great for me, so I figured this was just another flop, but we lasted for two years. The first year was good, even though I had to get adjusted to being with someone because I was so used to being single. The second year he started noticing peculiar things about me. He said to me,"You always run from situations. You never confront anything. You avoid everything. You can't keep running for the rest of your life. You have to stop and think about why you're doing that. You have to fight for yourself and your life."
I denied it all and acted as if I didn't know what he was talking about. When our relationship ended I was hurt, but I realized he was placed in my life to make me go back to the place where I would find the answers I needed in order for me to move forward. My relationship wasn't a waste or a mistake. It was a life lesson designed to help and teach me.
When people found out we were over they blamed him, but I told them it was all me. We end up better off in life when we stand up and accept responsibility and stop playing the victim all the time. When you become empowered you'll see positive results.

What are we doing?

"The sins of the father shall be visited onto other generations."
This still haunts me to this day. We have to be very careful about the decisions we make because it have can certain ramifications down the line. I just recently got closure from something that happened years ago, but suffered from years of sleepless nights because of the trauma.
The decisions we make as adults come from how we are raised. It's our frame of reference, so when we're judged for something that we don't understand we feel it's not right or fair.
Today it seems we're living in two separate societies, or maybe everyone is just living in their own world. There is no community anymore. Everyone is a part of the "problem", but not the solution. We point fingers and talk about people after the fact. We talk about people we don't know or don't understand, but won't stand up and teach the SCIENCE of how to do things, or how to build. We have to realize if we want to see change, it starts with us first, but we must also practice being authentic.